...In which our heroine is getting better.

However cliche it seems, and it is, I've come to realize again in the past few days how very lucky I am to have wonderful people in my life that pick me up when I fall down. It really lets you see your true friends. In particular, Cassie and my wonderful mom have been really supportive and know all the right things to say. And thank you humble readers too for such kind words, they really have made things seem not so shitty.

My already hyper-active brain has been sent into overdrive by the current circumstances and I've come to realize that of all the things I'll miss about dating Ben, the one that stings the most is the fact that there are so many things I won't get to share with him. I almost lost it in Chipotle today when "California Stars" came on - because if we were still together, I would text him and tell him. But now I can't. The gods must hate me because many similar occurrences have happened in the past few days. I could share with him things I couldn't share with anyone else, and now I can't.

But, I am feeling much less blue about the situation. The group has hung out the past two nights and it hasn't been weird, and it's much easier to be around him than I thought it would be. The days pass and it hurts less and less. I would be lying if I said I was over it though. I am very much not.

The good thing about this - and there are always good things I do think - is that I've realized I need to get back to doing what's important to me. Today I went to Record Store Day for a while (I wish I could have see the Deal sisters at Shake-It though) and then visited the cinephile paradise Facets, which has like 65,000 titles for rent. I've been prepping a lot of stuff for my final film with my friend Haley, and I'm directing again, so that's in good shape. 

And, coolest of all, Pomegranates stayed at my apartment last night! They had played a show in town and when I saw Josh last weekend I offered up our living room so they didn't have to sleep in the van. They were very polite and cleaner than most of our friends, and it was nice to see them all again. My band-aid cred increases.

So I'm doing a little better everyday, and that's all I can ask for.